2007年9月28日星期五

Always Quiet

Lyric By Wenshan Fang
Sung by A Sang


On the deserted street,
I want to find someone and confide.
Making such decision,
is for the loneliness that accompanies me.

The love between us,
Just like the landscape you pass by.
You strided on and on,
But your feet never lingered for me.

The love given to you is always quiet,
In exchange of the occasional concern from you,
It is a movie about three people,
But my name never appeared.

You said love is like cloud,
Beautiful while wandering aloft freely.
I finally believed that,
The reason of breaking up can sounds appealing.

The love given to you is always quiet,
In exchange of the occasional concern from you,
It is a movie about three people,
But my name never appeared.

The love given to you is always quiet,
I made up my mind at the beginning.
I thought only a history is enough,
Only to find that love must be responsed.

The love given to you is always quiet,
In exchange of the occasional concern from you,
It is a movie about three people,
But my name never appeared.

The love given to you is always quiet,
Except teardrops indulge themselves on my face.
The "yuanfen"* is used to explain,
The fact that you love me no more.
*"Yuanfen" is one of the few common Chinese phrases that has absolutely no counterpart in English. It can be seen as "prearranged relationship". e.g. "There's yuanfen between them." can roughly be put into "They're destined to become lovers".

2007年9月27日星期四

One Year Ago...

I was sitting in front of my laptop, watching the "ultimate Korean Tear-Bomb"-- the MTV of Because I am a Girl. Though I've been acquainted to all the plot, I still burst into tears once more. Not only because of the effect of the MTV, but also because the memory it brought to me.

The first time I heard it was almost one year ago, when I was taking the selective course Mental Health. The course was about dealing with love. I still remember that I wept for almost one hour, and realized the power of "Korean Tear-Bomb" for the first time. Before that, I thought I'd become a pure pedant, and had lost the ability to be moved by a short MTV. However, I found that I was still a human-being that can be affected by these things.

Before that, I have adopted a lifestyle of "Book-Food-Bed", and have little interest in things like love. Though I've been enjoying being with Y, and had considered chasing her, I was not at all sure because love was, before the MTV, not as reading. It was that event that helped me to make up my mind to formally chase her. Though, as you all know, it failed, it was the first time that I devote myself in loving a girl, and thus will be remembered for good.

Oh yes, academic. I can read for almost 10 hour each day, without feeling especially irritated or exhausted. I never felt sleepy during the noon break; if ever, I can just take a very short nap on the desk, and continue reading terrible things like functional analysis. Games? I only play teeny tiny ones, very old and boring, but I didn't felt the life tedious at all.

Why, at that time, can I be so easily brought to tears?

Why, at that time, can my love be so simple and true?

Why, at that time, can I truly enjoy days without much entertainments?

2007年9月26日星期三

The Sit-In

This should be recorded on 24th, but there were, as you can see, something more meaningful than that to be recorded, and I have to delay writing it down.

As I've mentioned in Anti-China & Anti-Mainland Part II, a majority of local students were struggling for their "Hall Position", and some of them think it is Mainland students that caused such problem. As I've been in Hong Kong for a longer time, I found that I'd badly underestimated how critical the problem of house was. In Mainland, providing sufficient dormitory is never a big problem, and the problem is how to compel all the students live in the dormitory. In Hong Kong, the situation is just opposite. It's never a problem to have students who beg to dwell in the dormitory, and the problem is whether they can get enough land to build dormitory for all the students. In Mainland, a lot of students would rather rent a room near the campus at a higher price than dwell in the uncomfortable dormitory. In Hong Kong, a lot of students would rather tolerate the dormitory than paying a 10 times higher price on renting a room nearby. (In UST, even if you're content to pay a 10 times higher price, you may probably fail to find a vacant room nearby.)

Knowing this, I became quite a bit sympathetic to the students there. If I am force to choose between spending 3 hours on bus every day and sleeping on the lawn in the campus (or sharing a bed with a close friend), I'll react far more violently than them.

On September 24th, the students who suffered from the situation above organized a sit-in. In Mainland, where the concept of democracy is less accepted, such a "sit-in" by students is definitely impossible-- the students will be dispelled by force and the leader (organizer) will surely be cruelly penalized. I saw the sit-in after lunch, and ran back to the my room to fetch my digital camera despite it was raining cats and dogs outside (and my pants got totally wet), and returned just in time to take a group of photos.

After taking these photos, I suddenly had a wild idea. I wanna talk to one of them and to know them and their idea more. It's quite a bit dangerous, because they might answer my question with fist. I prepared myself physically and mentally, and chose a bunch of seemingly kind student, and sat beside him.

"Excuse me, can I ask you a couple of questions please? I'm not a reporter of any kind. I'm just curious to your behavior."

They peered at me, "Sure", one of them said.

"Well, it seems that some of you are more or less against Mainland students, is it because of reasons like they've occupied your resources and grabbed opportunities that should have been yours, or is it just the problem of hall position?"

"We're content to have more friends from Mainland, were it not for the problem of hall position." he said.

"In fact, we are not against Mainland students, since it's not their fault. It is the university to be blamed. We're here today to declare our unsatisfactory to the university." another one said.

That make me feel much safer. I said, "In fact, I'm an exchange student from Mainland..."

"OK! So let's speak Mandarin."

Therefore, we had a good talk. They seemed confident with their viewpoint until I asked, "So, if UST solve the problem by cutting the number of local student it will accept in 2008 by half, what will you say?"

"That's ridiculous...So what shall those students do?"

"Go to Mainland! If more and more Mainland students are coming to Hong Kong, the universities in Mainland should have more and more vacancies."

"The universities in Mainland are worse and less famous!"

"That's right! So we can compete for the limited positions in UST. Winner gets all, loser sucks! There are more than 20 students who apply for exchanging to HKUST, and I have to defeat all of them! Is it because you're inferior academically than us?"

I thought my question can only be answered with fists this time, but they just smiled and avoided answering. It disappoints me!

That night, when I was coming back to UST with Feng, I told him that I talked to the sit-in students. He was shocked, "You may well probably get beaten!" However, I'm not, even after asking a offending question like that.

2007年9月23日星期日

The Report is Finally Finished!

Today, I finished my first formal homework assignment since I came to Hong Kong!

Needless to say, it is the assignment of Computational Physics. As you know, I completed all the calculation one week ago, so writing the report seemed to be easy for me. However, it turned out to be quite irritating to finish the job. The lesson is: even if one have finished all the research work, and get all the result needed to write a paper, it is still very involving to actually produce the paper.

There are two problems that are relatively "theoretical" i.e. I'm required to analyse something mathematically, without using computer to do some practical calculation. Last night, when I've finished all the "practical" ones, I began to think of them. The first one was very straightforward but involving (i.e. you know how to do it right on first glimpse, but it take a lot of time to actually solve it). However, with the help of the invincible Mathematica 7.0, I was able to finish this problem very quickly.

After that, I discussed with Bill Chow, a seemingly capable local student who also took the course. I was in hope of finding some help, but finally I found that he was asking for my help all the time. He said he had some difficulty with the problem I had just solved, so I sent him my answer. To my surprise, instead of being grateful, he asked me why I "didn't use the Lagrange interpolation formula". I said, "It's very easy with the help of Mathematica, anyway. If you use the Lagrange thing, you have to expand it, which is more involving." He said, "They took me a long time to solve..." I said proudly, "That's why I chose to learn Mathematica and Matlab!"

He was apparently envious, for I found a shortcut to do some thing that cost him hours in a minute. Soon he told me exaltedly that his answer was different from mine. I was a little nervous at the beginning. However, I gave almost blind trust to Integrated Software Packages, so I read the note again. I soon found "hints" that were very supportive to my answer. I showed him, and he, defeated, had no word to say.

The other "theoretical" problem is far more difficult, and I, as a compensation to my "rudeness", modestly asked for his opinion. He said he had no idea at all and simply threw it at me. Hence, I had to struggle through it, alone!

I didn't made any progress until 2:30 a.m. today, when I found one definition in the problem is "utterly absurd", as I wrote in the report later. After telling the professor that I modified that part so that the problem would make a little sense, I began to solve it. It was even more involving even though I modified it. With the ultimate power of Mathematica, I got the answer, but I didn't believe it, because there were two points where a "beta" have the same value, but they turned out to be equal to 1 and 3 respectively. I returned to the note, which said the "3" was right, but it didn't discuss if the "1" is correct at that point. I spent a lot of time dealing with this annoying thing, but without any progress, hence I just left it there.

I woke up hardly before 1 p.m. (another record in Hong Kong) and had lunch. Then I turned on the computer, where Bill was waiting. He asked me for my work the moment he saw me online, and I gave him my "insane solution". As I've expected, he doubted my modification, but he soon accept its necessity. However, he distrust my result via using Mathematica. In fact, he was hostile to it.

Bill: but sorry.. can you tell me how to expand that equation??
Pony: It's a Taylor expansion, isn't it?
Bill: yes
Pony: Then why not simply give the final result?
Bill: i want to do it by hand once..
Pony: You just do it with in the regular way we learned in Calculus, no shortcut, it seems. With some labor, you can get the correct result.
(A long silence)
Bill: OK...may be i just trust your result...==.==

Later, he talked about "steps" and "explanation" with me.
Bill: I think professor don't suppose we use mathematica to solve.
Pony: You can add a sentence like, "After eight hours of involving algebra, I finally get:"
Bill: are you kidding.....
Pony: You were talking about explanation, and you're a bit hostile to software package.
Pony: So that's the best explanation you can write.
Bill: ok...because i feel guilty that i didn't go through the step myself..

His words made me quite uncomfortable. Anyway, I'm very proud of my first report, whatever grade it will get. As to "forbid the using of ISP", I've thought of a whole set of excuse to deal with that.

2007年9月20日星期四

Come Across

Sun By Stefanie Sun

Hearing the departure of winter,
I woke up at a point of some year.
I thought, I waited, I expected,
But the future cannot be rearranged.

Cloudy, evenfall, ouside the window,
Someone is waiting in tomorrow.
I looked left, and right, and the front,
How many crooks should love go through before it arrives?

Whom I will come across, and what the dialog will be like?
How long is it before I meet the waited one?
I heard wind, from subway and the crowd,
I'm in a queue, holding the number for love.

I fly forward, across a sea of time,
Both of us has got injured in love.
I peer at the road, the entrance of love is narrow,
Coming across you is the most beautiful accident.

Sooner or later, the riddle will be answered.

2007年9月18日星期二

10th Anniversary

Dedicated to the best love tragedy ever appeared on the Internet in Chinese language,

And to the immortal love whose power can overcome the distance between love and death.



September 18th, 1997

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2007年9月16日星期日

The Figures Released

Today, with the data calculated last night (this morning, in fact), the almighty Lord Maverick plotted them out with Matlab. As a showing off, I'll post them here for you.
Well, should Professor Z. Y. Chen ever found this page, and accuse one of his students of "copying these from Pony into his paper", just come and find the author of that paper, and he'll explain.

The trajectory of a particle in a field, with different step h, from 10^-2 to 10^-5.

The energy of the particle mentioned above. It's supposed to be a constant, but error is inevitable in computational physics, the only question is how large the error is.




The motion of a pendulum, solved with Euler's method, a very rough method for ODEs. The line "below" is for the angle it turned in respect of vertical. It should be perfectly periodical, but error make it greatly distorted. The line "above" is for angular velocity, it is even more distorted.

The same pendulum, solved with Velvet's method, a method particularly suitable for 2nd-order ODE with periodical solution. You can see its advantage.